Look and Listen

Biography

Biography? Lord have mercy, forget it. The layers of shit that have been piling on top of each other year after year after year might better be understood with the completion of my book, Pretend It's Not Me, which is why I've invited myself here. The only simple biographical facts that don't need interpretation, explanation, clarification or refridgeration are where I was born and on what date. The rest of it is like a nightmare on speed.

Inspiration

I am my own inspiration. I am the only person who has ever been on my side. I am the only person I've ever been able to trust, and even though I've dissapointed myself too many times to mention, I'm trying to forgive every stupid, disrespectful, unfair and hurtful thing that has ever been done to me, either by my own hand or by the hands of those who have enjoyed watching me suffer. And there have been many. I've reached a point in my life where there's just too much to lose, I've come through way too much pain to give up now. So I'll put up with myself a little while longer and maybe I'll find something good in this life, a day when I can look back from a place of understanding and forgivness because right now I'm not feeling it. I'm a bitter old bitch with a chip on my shoulder and a whole lot of grievences! Once I get those out of the way I'll try being all enlightened and Zen about the bastards that have been in my way for far too long!