Look and Listen

Biography

I spent 12 years of my most important early years in Farmington, Utah, where I pitched 101 strikeouts on the little league team, beat many in the 400 yard dash, and grew depressed from life altering experiences. After 11 years of depression I went to the wilderness, grew a beard, and sat in group therapy. My picture shows that. It was a breakthrough therapy session, for it was there that a profound facilitator showed me the key to my major depression, and I felt much more alive. Suffering was my major occupation for a long, long time, and I spent a lot of time writing about it and seeking to be relieved from it. My life at one point could be summed up in this poem: Sullen Gloom. A flower blooms in spring to catch the warm rain. A Robin spreads its wings to fly once again. The sun spreads heat; the wind blows even. Everything is alive and happy...like Heaven. But one man stands beneath it all in sullen gloom.

Inspiration

The influences that formed me as a writer have been my natural love of the written word, and the great profusion of powerful influences, both positive and negative, that came into my life. They are much too numerous and complicated to mention. Once upon a time I was pulled into hell's most desirable temptation. It felt so good to be there I felt the acceptance of many voices and minds. The total goodness and beauty of it all was so profoundly sure. And after my immersion in it was all over, I was in hell. I was in a tight straightjacket Suffering and misery and consequences. Hell washed over me entirely,